About a week ago, I had a short conversation with an old friend but sadly the point of the discussion was of the departure of a mutual friend.
The news shook me like I never expected anything to. I wasn't surprised by why the news almost broke my spirit, he was a dear and true friend but the problem is we havent spoken in probably more than five years.
This certainly isnt because of any animosity but just an occurence of life drifting us apart. I wasnt sure whether or not my sadness was because I was going to miss him or because of the permanence of the news; he is dead and that is that no possibility of the big 'reunion' I had always considered at the times when his thoughts crossed my mind.
No possible chance at seeing in the future if he had fufilled the dreams he had for life. No goodbyes, just an end, an end i am still unable to comprehend.
I just dont understand. i just dont. am i to feel guilt for not having spoken to him for five years? what am i to mourn, a friend? a brother? Perhaps i do not even hold the right to mourn and grief.
Death, Death in the family
Depart from us
Do not knock on our doors
We have had enough from you
You knock when we least expect
Why don't you give us a headstart
Let us prepare for your visit
Old men and women taken
When they want youth again
Teenagers children taken
When they want to be leaders of tomorrow
Death, Death in the family
My tears will not bring you back, they will not replenish our lost years, they will not replace what could have been nor what will be but, they show my love, my pain, my distress. They are a symbol of the good times, the protection, the care, the laughter. Those times that I shall never, never forget.
I pay my respect to you my friend, my very own 'FATHER'.
Yours
Arike Ade
